Often I hike on high trails along a nearby mountainside. The other day, I was hiking along in an interesting kind of mood when I looked far down below me at the many houses in a small valley area, and I felt like scoffing.
"What kind fool builds their cities in totally unprotected valleys!?!" I thought to myself!
"Surely they must realize how dangerous it is. Then it occured to me, they must live in a time of unparalelled peace and prosperity to even consider a stunt like that! Even those small peaks, as low as they are, would offer at least some protection from invasion and attack, and would be the logical place to build, but instead they have actually built their homes in the very depths of the valley! Unbelievable!"
Then I shook my head and remembered building in the valleys is normal and everyone does it. Or least that is what they do here.
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
The Moon is TOO SMALL! Another Reverse Dream?
The other day, I was in the parking lot of some strip mall when out of the corner of my eye I saw the moon, a huge big beautiful glowing milky smooth thing, about 7 times larger than it usually looks. Instantly, a huge wave of primal relief and joy washed through me. Finally, my big beautiful moon! I was home at last!
Then I turned my head and realized it was just a big round white lighted sign for some restaurant. Disappointment! I have always felt the moon, the real moon that is, was just too small. While other people have gazed up and commented on how beautiful and large the moon is, I can't help but inwardly scoff. I have always felt there is just something wrong with that little bitty marble they call the moon. It's way too damned small! But it wasn't until I mistook that restaurant sign for the moon, that sign that was big and beautiful like the real moon should look like, that I realized the depth of that feeling. It is a true longing, but for what I don't really understand.
Then I turned my head and realized it was just a big round white lighted sign for some restaurant. Disappointment! I have always felt the moon, the real moon that is, was just too small. While other people have gazed up and commented on how beautiful and large the moon is, I can't help but inwardly scoff. I have always felt there is just something wrong with that little bitty marble they call the moon. It's way too damned small! But it wasn't until I mistook that restaurant sign for the moon, that sign that was big and beautiful like the real moon should look like, that I realized the depth of that feeling. It is a true longing, but for what I don't really understand.
Sunday, August 5, 2012
His Name was Air Ice
I was somewhere on the side of a hill in a dry desert chaparral area when I saw a large dust devil or small tornado. I became fascinated. Logically, I knew it was big enough to be potentially dangerous, but I approached anyway, slowly and cautiously. As I approached, the spinning action seemed to intensify until it really did look like a small but intense tornado, maybe 3 feet across. I felt fear but still I did not run.
After a short while of watching, the tornado straightened and stayed in one place and I continued to stare at it, fascinated, wondering which direction it would lead next. I wanted to investigate it but not actually get run over by it. But how to predict a tornado!
I continued to watch, and as it stayed in one place, very straight and powerful now, I had a strange and illogical feeling that it was actually watching me too! The feeling intensified and eventually I allowed that the tornado might be sentient in some way and it seemed that it was also curious. It had a powerful intensity of watchfulness to it.
Then the tornado disappeared and in its place was a very handsome man. I knew the man was another manifestation of the tornado, but still I could not help but appreciate the appearance of the man. He was about 5'10" white, medium build, well muscled, about 23, with strange fine white medium length (for a man) hair and a relaxed confident air. Except for his hair and extreme handsomeness, he looked very normal. He wore jeans with a leather belt and no shirt, as he stood calmly and observed me. I had the sudden idea that his name was "Air Ice," which seemed a very cool and profound name at the time.
He was very handsome but I knew he was also the tornado and still felt some threat from him. On his side, I felt he wanted to convey to me that he was still a threat and would attack me. I tried to maintain confidence and think of ways to defend myself, although I could think of nothing in particular. Soon his attack came and it was like something was wrapping around my legs. Planning to fight my way out, I looked down and his legs were wrapping around my legs as if they were snakes. I planned to pull them off but Air Ice made it known that his legs were infinitely stretchy and long and could not be defeated. I glared at him and this time I saw that while his body position was still the same, his legs were actually missing as they were instead now attacking me instead of being under him. Only his upper body 'stood' there now looking calmly at me, apparently not need the legs for actual support, but instead just hanging there in midair. I stopped fighting the sinuous legs knowing he spoke the truth, that they could not be fought. For whatever reason, I believed what he said, but at the same time somehow I maintained illogical confidence that I would win anyway, even though I did not know how. I was defiant.
Then his attack stopped, his 'legs' returned to the rest of his body, and the sense of threat from him stopped. We talked as friendly acquaintances a little bit about a few things, but I can't remember what now. But I do not have the feeling it was about anything super exciting. Then he left and as he was walking away, I got the sudden feeling/insight that he was a guide.
Perhaps the main lesson here was to have confidence in your success even if you can't yet see how you will accomplish it.
After a short while of watching, the tornado straightened and stayed in one place and I continued to stare at it, fascinated, wondering which direction it would lead next. I wanted to investigate it but not actually get run over by it. But how to predict a tornado!
I continued to watch, and as it stayed in one place, very straight and powerful now, I had a strange and illogical feeling that it was actually watching me too! The feeling intensified and eventually I allowed that the tornado might be sentient in some way and it seemed that it was also curious. It had a powerful intensity of watchfulness to it.
Then the tornado disappeared and in its place was a very handsome man. I knew the man was another manifestation of the tornado, but still I could not help but appreciate the appearance of the man. He was about 5'10" white, medium build, well muscled, about 23, with strange fine white medium length (for a man) hair and a relaxed confident air. Except for his hair and extreme handsomeness, he looked very normal. He wore jeans with a leather belt and no shirt, as he stood calmly and observed me. I had the sudden idea that his name was "Air Ice," which seemed a very cool and profound name at the time.
He was very handsome but I knew he was also the tornado and still felt some threat from him. On his side, I felt he wanted to convey to me that he was still a threat and would attack me. I tried to maintain confidence and think of ways to defend myself, although I could think of nothing in particular. Soon his attack came and it was like something was wrapping around my legs. Planning to fight my way out, I looked down and his legs were wrapping around my legs as if they were snakes. I planned to pull them off but Air Ice made it known that his legs were infinitely stretchy and long and could not be defeated. I glared at him and this time I saw that while his body position was still the same, his legs were actually missing as they were instead now attacking me instead of being under him. Only his upper body 'stood' there now looking calmly at me, apparently not need the legs for actual support, but instead just hanging there in midair. I stopped fighting the sinuous legs knowing he spoke the truth, that they could not be fought. For whatever reason, I believed what he said, but at the same time somehow I maintained illogical confidence that I would win anyway, even though I did not know how. I was defiant.
Then his attack stopped, his 'legs' returned to the rest of his body, and the sense of threat from him stopped. We talked as friendly acquaintances a little bit about a few things, but I can't remember what now. But I do not have the feeling it was about anything super exciting. Then he left and as he was walking away, I got the sudden feeling/insight that he was a guide.
Perhaps the main lesson here was to have confidence in your success even if you can't yet see how you will accomplish it.
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