Sunday, January 19, 2014
What would it mean to get married?
Another dream, I walk with him on the deck of the boat. He bids me sit on a wooden bench and he sits beside me, dark hair, sparkling eyes, and a pure white formal uniform with many buttons which reminds me vaguely of a military uniform. As we sit, I suddenly suspect what he wants and I become afraid. I realize he wants to ask me to marry him, a marriage of promise made with red blood that will completely bind us for the entirety of my life. Divorce would not be an option. I feel he is a good man and I don't want to disappoint him. I feel that I SHOULD be ready to marry him, that he deserves it and I owe it to him. But the more I think about it, the more afraid I become. I don't want to say no, but I feel that I really only just met him and that I barely know him. It's too soon, it's too soon! The more I think about it, the more I don't want to do it. At least not yet.
Standing in front of us as we sit, an observer looks down at the two of us and tells me that if in my mind I do not want it, then it can't happen no matter what I say out loud. Therefore it's already over, I have already said no even though I had not exactly meant to do so. We will not get married, at least not now. I feel saddened but even more so, I feel relieved. I think about what a wonderful boyfriend I have and how much I like him. I hang on his arm. That's good enough for now. End of dream.
Friday, January 17, 2014
The White Trees and Superman Story
A strange dream, not entirely realistic but interesting to me because it had a story line:
Me and some friends road on top of a slow moving training that snaked peacefully through a beautiful parklike country side of low grass and tall willowy trees with white trunks. At some point, I and a few others jumped off and lost track of the train. We were walking along looking for the train when suddenly something grabbed us from behind and plucked us into the air. Seconds later, we were dangling 3 stories high in the air near one of the trees, completely bewildered and confused.
We began to debate what had happened. My friends had some ideas about maybe it was UFOs. My argument was that it had to be that one of the trees that had grabbed us, but the others thought this was ridiculous.
"But how then are we still dangling now without falling unless the tree is grabbing us?" I asked. They had no answer.
Eventually we were put down and scurried on our way, still not in agreement about what had happened but in a hurry to get away from whatever it was. After a while of continued wandering, I began to inspect the trees and noticed many of them had a double trunk on the bottom, almost as if they had legs. The more I looked at them, the more lifelike they seemed. Then I spied a tree that looked like a humanoid, with two long trunk legs, two arm like large branched and an upright branch at the top where the head would have been. It's bark was white and peeling and it had few leaves or side branches, just a few twigs. It stood in a stooped crouched position and when it realized I was staring, it loped away from sight before I could point it out to the others. Now I felt confident the trees were alive and animate but since they had not really hurt us previously, although I was wary of them, I did not feel great fear. We continued on and found our way back home to civilization which is where the next part of the story begins.
In this part, I was working together with a super hero type person to defeat an evil villain. I have no name for the super hero so I will for the sake of the story call him Superman. The villain had been thus far kicking our butt. Superman was not strong enough. I and a few others who knew Superman had been working with him to defeat the villain using various strategies but none had worked and we were in dire straights. Eventually, the villain had found my house when I wasn't home and had destroyed the inside, breaking apart much of my furniture. We then quickly moved to rented place and continued on.
Soon after, I went off to work on the villain project and when I came home, the new place also was also broken up inside. Now I was really scared. How did the villain find my hideout so quickly when I had gone through such pains to keep it hidden? If he could do that, there was no place for us to hide. We knew the villain would be back any minute and so Superman and I and a few cohorts prepared a last stand against him.
When he came, he quickly defeated Superman and as Superman lay unconscious, we feared for our lives and all humanity. He could easily kills us at any second, but then I began the last ditch backup plan. As the villain stood outside the house in a location I had planned in advance, hidden machines around him zapped him from all directions and split him into 8 different individuals.
At this time, I recalled back to the creation of the villain. It was time for the back story. It had all started with the animate trees back in the park. Scientists had studied them and were able to extract the spark of life from one of the trees. The spark was then isolated and the end result was a terrible powerful creature that had become the villain. Now I had no way of destroying the villain's spark of life but I could split him into parts, although with little idea of the outcome other than that his power would also be split into parts.
After the zapping, I watched as 8 young boys with dark hair now stood where the villain once had been. They were all dressed similarly in dark clothes and looked to be about 8 or 10 years old. Their personalities seemed much changed from the villain and 6 of them immediately moved away in different directions and soon were out of sight. Two stayed for a short while, one slightly taller and appearing older than the other and the taller one, did all the talking. Curious but nervous, I approached and spoke with him. I asked him how he was and what his plans were. I knew I was taking a great risk because even at only 1/8 of his original power, he could easily destroy me. Superman also still lay unconscious and vulnerable. The taller boy acted as if I were a stranger and said, "We will need this lantern," and also indicated a need for a few other utilitarian items and so took them without asking. I did not argue. He seemed to speak more towards his younger cohort than me. Then they also left the area and disappeared into the world. I hoped that they would not cause trouble but if some of them did, once Superman recovered, he would at least be able to handle them one at a time now with their power thus split.
After the commotion, the police had arrived and were inspecting the damage to the inside of my home, trying to figure out what had happened. During the fight, the house had been further devastated and everything was broken, scattered, and strewn. Me and my cohorts needed to make an excuse to get inside and recover the body of Superman which was under a guise so that regular people could not see him. The police let us in hoping to get some clues from us about what had happened but we gave only vague answers that were not useful. Once in, some of us distracted the police while others of us got Superman's body. Superman would recover. It was a partial victory for us but we did not know what kinds of creatures the 8 children would become or what the future would hold. We could only hope that the future would be brighter.
Me and some friends road on top of a slow moving training that snaked peacefully through a beautiful parklike country side of low grass and tall willowy trees with white trunks. At some point, I and a few others jumped off and lost track of the train. We were walking along looking for the train when suddenly something grabbed us from behind and plucked us into the air. Seconds later, we were dangling 3 stories high in the air near one of the trees, completely bewildered and confused.
We began to debate what had happened. My friends had some ideas about maybe it was UFOs. My argument was that it had to be that one of the trees that had grabbed us, but the others thought this was ridiculous.
"But how then are we still dangling now without falling unless the tree is grabbing us?" I asked. They had no answer.
Eventually we were put down and scurried on our way, still not in agreement about what had happened but in a hurry to get away from whatever it was. After a while of continued wandering, I began to inspect the trees and noticed many of them had a double trunk on the bottom, almost as if they had legs. The more I looked at them, the more lifelike they seemed. Then I spied a tree that looked like a humanoid, with two long trunk legs, two arm like large branched and an upright branch at the top where the head would have been. It's bark was white and peeling and it had few leaves or side branches, just a few twigs. It stood in a stooped crouched position and when it realized I was staring, it loped away from sight before I could point it out to the others. Now I felt confident the trees were alive and animate but since they had not really hurt us previously, although I was wary of them, I did not feel great fear. We continued on and found our way back home to civilization which is where the next part of the story begins.
In this part, I was working together with a super hero type person to defeat an evil villain. I have no name for the super hero so I will for the sake of the story call him Superman. The villain had been thus far kicking our butt. Superman was not strong enough. I and a few others who knew Superman had been working with him to defeat the villain using various strategies but none had worked and we were in dire straights. Eventually, the villain had found my house when I wasn't home and had destroyed the inside, breaking apart much of my furniture. We then quickly moved to rented place and continued on.
Soon after, I went off to work on the villain project and when I came home, the new place also was also broken up inside. Now I was really scared. How did the villain find my hideout so quickly when I had gone through such pains to keep it hidden? If he could do that, there was no place for us to hide. We knew the villain would be back any minute and so Superman and I and a few cohorts prepared a last stand against him.
When he came, he quickly defeated Superman and as Superman lay unconscious, we feared for our lives and all humanity. He could easily kills us at any second, but then I began the last ditch backup plan. As the villain stood outside the house in a location I had planned in advance, hidden machines around him zapped him from all directions and split him into 8 different individuals.
At this time, I recalled back to the creation of the villain. It was time for the back story. It had all started with the animate trees back in the park. Scientists had studied them and were able to extract the spark of life from one of the trees. The spark was then isolated and the end result was a terrible powerful creature that had become the villain. Now I had no way of destroying the villain's spark of life but I could split him into parts, although with little idea of the outcome other than that his power would also be split into parts.
After the zapping, I watched as 8 young boys with dark hair now stood where the villain once had been. They were all dressed similarly in dark clothes and looked to be about 8 or 10 years old. Their personalities seemed much changed from the villain and 6 of them immediately moved away in different directions and soon were out of sight. Two stayed for a short while, one slightly taller and appearing older than the other and the taller one, did all the talking. Curious but nervous, I approached and spoke with him. I asked him how he was and what his plans were. I knew I was taking a great risk because even at only 1/8 of his original power, he could easily destroy me. Superman also still lay unconscious and vulnerable. The taller boy acted as if I were a stranger and said, "We will need this lantern," and also indicated a need for a few other utilitarian items and so took them without asking. I did not argue. He seemed to speak more towards his younger cohort than me. Then they also left the area and disappeared into the world. I hoped that they would not cause trouble but if some of them did, once Superman recovered, he would at least be able to handle them one at a time now with their power thus split.
After the commotion, the police had arrived and were inspecting the damage to the inside of my home, trying to figure out what had happened. During the fight, the house had been further devastated and everything was broken, scattered, and strewn. Me and my cohorts needed to make an excuse to get inside and recover the body of Superman which was under a guise so that regular people could not see him. The police let us in hoping to get some clues from us about what had happened but we gave only vague answers that were not useful. Once in, some of us distracted the police while others of us got Superman's body. Superman would recover. It was a partial victory for us but we did not know what kinds of creatures the 8 children would become or what the future would hold. We could only hope that the future would be brighter.
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